Jonathan · Uhas

Ack! I haven't updated in sooooooooo long! So here I go! Well, recentely I got a new job, finally, at Oakwood Hospital and Medical Center as a nursing assistant on 6N. I've had a really good time up there, all my co-workers are really nice and i've seen many many different kinds of patients. For school, I ended up not passing nsg 221 my 2%, can you believe it!? Two fucking percent! Six points! Man! But now that I look back on it I am kinda glad it happened now, because now i have a year to release all that stress I had while in the program and I can now work more and learn more in the meantime, so it's not that bad. Let's see what else... Parents found out I am gay, that was fun... Not! That's really all the major stuff I can think of at this moment. I met this guy Allan, he's really nice and we've got some things in common and yet are kinda different so it's interesting, maybe something will come out of it... maybe. Unless my luck holds out and something intervenes and fucks it all up, I hope not. :'( Okay, now on to more recent news, lol. I almost hit some dumbass today while driving. The guy walks out right in front of my fucking car! Luckily I swerved and was able to dodge him, but what the fuck! I mean come on! *sigh* People are fucking idiots I swear. Anyway, i want to get some studying done and eat some cookies. Love to all.

Jonathan

*sigh* So yesterday I went into Henry Ford Hospital, the main hospital, for an interview as a nursing extern. I really think i failed it. The interviewer asked some questions about possible scenerios and i think those are the reason why i failed. Like on one of them she asked, "You examine a patient three days post-op and the incision site is red, what do you think?" Well, I ask if there is anything else, like fluid coming out of it or anything and she's like "No, it's just red." well, i say it's probably healing because of the vascular perfusion going to it. Now it could have also been infected but people generally display more signs of infection than it just being red. They usually have pain at the site, unusual fluid leaking out of it, slight edema but all she said was that it was red, that's it. Also she asked that if i was going into a room for morning vitals and noticed that the patient had no pulse and wasn't breathing, what would i do. Well, i asked if i was in the postion of nurse or as an extern and she's like "Either." and I told her i would immediately inform the attending RN about the situation. Now that i think about it, as a nurse i would probably call code. My goodness, that nurse was so vague with the questions that it was hard to find any right answer. *sigh* I guess I should be focused on hopefully getting the job at EB Games right now since I am not going to get this extern position. Well, i'm just going to have to wait till friday to know for sure. Waiting is the worst part. :(

OMG! You will not believe this! Okay, so, I'm taking classes during the summer so I can learn more about diseases and nursing, right? Well, right now I'm taking Pathophysiology. Our genius teacher decided to take a vacation for like two weeks when she is supposed to be in class teaching us! Not only that, but, she leaves us with a sub-like teacher who has absolutely no fucking idea what the hell she is doing. Well, lo and behold, by the time our teacher comes back to give us our second test, we can't take the damn thing because we were supposed to have learned both the cardiovascular and respiratory systems and she only taught us respiratory. Now thanx to her we have to take the second test on july 13, and now the class schedule is completely thrown off and I don't know what will happen. Oh! and I still have to talk about the first test! Well, after our first test, i find out that i got 41 questions right out of 60 and 42 is what is needed to pass so i missed by one point! That's not the end to the story though! While we were going over the test with the sub, we found that some of the questions that was marked wrong on our test were actually right! So we had to hand the test back in and had to wait like two weeks just for our instructor to come back and go over the tests and correct them! Come on! WTF! My parents are paying for them to teach me, not go on vacations and screw up tests, so get it right the first time! Seriously! Okay, I got that off my chest, I feel better now! To all who read this, hope you have a superb day! ^_^

Well, here's another entry made by me! Well, today has been a pretty good day! Let's see, I finished my research on both Angels and Demons, and I have decided how each of the Angels in my first novel will be, so i'm excited to start writing again. I have decided to use the idea of multiple heavens in my novel, but I thought and I will be adding my own little twist to it to make it more my own (Thanks Chris!)

Oh, my parents and I are almost finished with the house, and preparing it for Father's Day! I'll be working, so i'm gonna have to lock up all my valuable stuff because I don't want my oldest 2nd cousin, Zack, to come up here and steal anything. I am so worried that he might end up in Juvie someday. *sigh*

Ah, I heard from my old friend Cat today! OMGosh, I was so happy to hear from her! I also discovered that she has changed quite a bit, she has become more bitchy (in a good way!) and she has discovered her bi'ness (which i even doubt is a word). I really hope that we can rekindle our friendship 'cause she really does mean a lot to me, she really is an awesome person! ^_^

Let's see, Chris is doing fine. He has chosen his classes for fall, which is wonderful. I really hope he does well! Wait, why do i need to hope? He will do well, he's a very smart guy.

Oh! I talked to Landon today! He is doing fine as well! I am glad he is! He is such a sweet person. Although, sometime's it is hard to talk to him, 'cause I tend to open up a lot to him. I don't know why... I don't usually open myself up to people 'cause the last thing people need is my problems on top of their own.

I've been thinking lately (yeah weird, i know!) but I have decided that I will stop looking for that special someone right now and start having more fun (Thanks Landon!) I have a feeling that this will work out the best for me. ^_^

Well, that's it for tonight.

-Jonathan

Hey hey! Time for another entry! All right!

Okay, first of all! I recently got a message on myspace from this guy named Rob, now i have talked to him a little bit through messages but the most I have ever said to this guy was "Hi, how r u, i'm good". Seriously, that is the most I have said to this guy. Well, anyway, he sends me a message, quite recently, and asked if he can call me his "baby" or his "bf" or if i prefer a different name or something like that. I took one look at the message and I'm like what the heck! I barely know this guy and he's wants to call me his? Uh uh, I don't think so. So i sent a message back saying "You aren't gonna call me none of these names 'cause i'm none of these things to you. Thanx."

Oh, yeah, i've finally started researching for my novel "Heaven's Refugees" recently, unfortunately though I found out that there are so many variations in beliefs of heaven and angels that i'm gonna have to sort everything out the way i need it. It's gonna be quite a bit of work to do but I know I can do it!

Let's see, ah, yes, i've started talking to Landon again recently! I'm glad I did 'cause he is a super nice and very sweet guy. Not to mention pretty hot... =^_^= But anyway, I hope we can hang out 'cause he really is an awesome person. I've learned that he has gone through a hell of a lot in his life but he's come out just amazing.

I've talked to TJ recently. He seems to be pretty up and down. His last blog he wrote really had me worried because I could sense so much, downess i guess you could call it, from it and I was seriously afraid for his life. I've heard and seen what depression can do to someone and what it can make them do and I don't want him to get to far into it. *sigh*

What else, oh, I got my test for pathophysiology back recently and I discovered that I got one point below 70% which is like a 68%. The funny part is, is that during class we went over the test and we discovered that a lot of the answers that were counted as right were actually wrong and so when our normal teacher comes back, hopefully next week, we should get a bunch more points due to the faculty's error. Boo ya!

I also saw the remake of The Omen yesterday. It was pretty good, there were some parts that made me want to pee myself but I got through it okay. Although, afterward i had a headache, must be because me, Jamie, and Arlene sat so close to the speakers. Pretty dumb in retrospect. Hmm...

Well, I think that's about it for today. I have to go to work at 5:45 today, so i'll probably be closing. yay... I'm still trying to find a dang job in a hospital setting! Man! Oh well, things should turn out okay.

-Jonathan

Well, today has been a very relaxing day for me! All I had to do today was mow the lawn and weed wack (I said wack!) the front and back yards. After that I pretty much just stayed home and played my rented game Hitman: Blood Money. I even talked to some of my friends on AIM today!

Tony talked to me and he is doing okay, he is just kinda lonely and is looking for a summer relationship. Man, it intrigues me as to how a person can just have a summer relationship or "fling". I mean, when I go out with a person, I want to have a lasting relationship! Not just go out with someone for a couple months, fuck and at the end of the season just go back to being single. I couldn't do that, and it just baffles me as to how someone else could.

Let's see, David says he is doing okay, although I really don't know much more 'cause he has a tendency to quiet up. I think his birthday is in a couple weeks, I may not have a lot of money to spend but I'm sure I could come up with something. Hmm...

Anyway, I also talked to TJ. It seems that he and Roger recently broke up. Man, that must really stink 'cause he told me that he really cares for Roger. I tried talking to him, because I sincerely believe that talking can help a person but he told me that he didn't so I didn't push it. But I really do think he is taking it harder than he letting on, but that is just my opinion!

Oh, I talked to Chris today too. He said he had a good day today. I read a lot of his postings and I can see that a lot has been going on in his life in the last couple of months. I won't go into any detail at all because he allowed me to read them and I am honored that he did. Although, I do have one thing to say. Chris, if you read this, I just want to let you know, that I know you will be able to achieve all the things on your to-do list and I know that you will someday find the one person for you, just don't give up! ^_^ And that is all I will say.

What else can I talk about? Oh! I finished the second chapter of my novel! Yay! Of course I wrote it at like 11 last night and didn't finish till like 12:30 this morning, so I don't know if it's any good or not, I really should relook it over.

I saw Doug on AIM tonight, and I had a strong urge to say hi or something to him... but I didn't. I know I still have some feelings for him, and I believe that he doesn't for me. It hurts to think that but I know that I have to accept it. The only time he ever talks or acknowledges me is when I do it to him. I think that I was, possibly, just being used as a temporary comfort measure by him. If I was then that explains why he never talks to me, especially after meeting Steven, the guy still looks like a chick. *sigh* Sometimes I wish I could just tear my heart out and not have to feel anything. Maybe I will grow up to be a lonely, bitter, old nurse. Wow, I just depressed myself. Now that i'm in this depression, I'm beginning to wonder, do any of my friends really like me, or am I just a nusiance to them? Eh, I don't know. All I can really do is just believe, believe that everything will fall into place.

Well, I think that's about it for tonight.

-Jonathan

Hey hey everyone! I know you all missed my posts 'cause i'm just so wonderful like that! "Yeah right! *a scream from back of the room* Everyone's a critic. ^_^

Anyway! So I haven't posted in a few months and boy what a few months these have been! Well first of all, I went into my Psyciatric Clinical at St. Mary's Mercy Hospital and it was extremely interesting! I never knew that psyciatric nursing was so... exciting! Unlike the Med/Surg floor I wasn't constantly running around like a chicken with my head cut off. I was actually able to sit down and talk with my patients because that is what they really need. Well, I got quite a variety of patients. I had one who was older and had major depression, I had another one who was bi-polar, another one with schizophrenia, and I think that was it. I really wanted to go into the chemical dependency part of the ward but we didn't have time for it. :(

OH! I gotta tell you this! Okay, so, one time when my clinial group was on the psyciatric ward, there was this patient who had just gotten out of prison and had come into the ward due to violent actions and threats. At least i think that was why. Hmmm... Anyway, our instructor got us a locked room where we had home base and sent groups of three out to do our evaluations and check with our patients. This was because she didn't want us to get caught alone with this patient and potentially get into a dangerous position. Luckily, everything went perfectly and no one was hurt by him. OMGosh! I almost forgot! I was in group therapy with another student and during the session he came in because he had to be there too and I was so nervous! I'm glad I didn't show it though and everything was fine 'cause a nurse came and got him so he could see the psyciatrist.

What else? Well, at the end of my psyciatric rotation I went into the final with an 81% or an 82%. First time ever I went into the final without a failing grade. Yay for me! Unfortunately though I did horrible on the final and I thought I failed but a few days later my classroom instructor called me and told me that I passed by like two points! I was so ecstatic! My parents freaked out! I was so happy. ^_^

So let's see... um... well... there was this guy Doug I liked, I even met him a few times but I don't think he's the one for me because he seems too interested in just hooking up with creepy looking guys that look like women. *shudder*

Oh! I've met tons of new friends! I've met Jeff, Master (Angela), Megan, Christina, Bil, Bill, TJ, Chris, and probably more people I can't remember at the moment! I'm lucky I even remembered these names! I have a terrible time remembering names... *sigh* Maybe is was from those seizures from when I was four? Hmmm...

Oh yeah... I have been kinda depressed lately 'cause i've noticed that everyone is getting together and I feel a little lonely. It's probably due to spring, you know, love is in the air or something like that. :-P Oh well, I'm still young, I know I will find that special someone just for me! ^_^

Well, I think that's about it for today.

-Jonathan

Oh my god! I am so fucking happy right now! The beginning of this week has been the most stressful time I have ever had! After I failed my fourth test by about three points I found out that I had a total percentage of 79% in the class going into the final. So the wednesday before the test I studied for like 11 hours so I could be prepared for the final. When the final was over I found out that the instructors had given us like 8 item analysis points and that had given me just enough to pass the class! I just got 80% on the nose! My gosh have I been getting lucky! So i'm happy.
Goodnight journal.

-Jonathan

Well, now for an update of what has happened to me in the past few days.

On Friday I didn't have any school because our instructors decided to give us the day off. Yay! So I got to sleep in and pretty much enjoy myself for the day. It was awesome! I even studied a little bit.

Saturday was a nightmare! First I went to a tutorial that started at 9 in the morning and I sat there for 4 hours and listened to this woman talk... fun... Secondly, when it was over and I started to drive home I discovered that Southfield Freeway was completely closed going South! I mean WTF! So I had drive all the way around in a circle to find my way to Telegraph and my way back home. I mean seriously! Damn assholes.

Today was fun, I slept in again... Yay! Then I pretty much studied the whole day. Man my head hurts... *sigh*

Well that's about it. Goodnight Journal.

-Jonathan

Okay so, on Thursday I got my grade back for my test and it came out to a disappointing 68%. That is like the worst grade I have gotten this semester! :( Fortunately, though, my total grade isn't below 80%. I'm on like the very line of going below so I have to do good on my next test and my final to keep it up.

Unfortunately that means i'll have to study... a lot. *sigh* Love the progam, but hate the work.

Goodnight journal.

-Jonathan

Okay, here is a short scoop of what has happened to me over the last couple of days. For starters, on Monday, I mostly just hung around the house due to the fact that it was President's Day. Whoo hoo(sarcastic). I even, stupidly, went to my bank to try to withdraw some money and that is how I remembered that it was President's Day. Smart me.

Now for Tuesday! Originally tuesday was supposed to be my last day for clinicals at Sinai-Grace Hospital but since our instructor is on her cruise right now we got yesterday off. Yay! ^_^ So, in order to make it a good day I called Jamie. So of course we went out shopping. She got kinda depressed because it's really hard to find cute outfits in her size. Poor Jamie...:( Afterward I went to her house for a little bit and then I came back home.

Today was interesting because I had my third test of the semester. It was a little hard but not as hard as Tracy made it out to be. I really don't know how I did on it but I will find out tomorrow. I hope I did good, or at least passed. *sigh*

Well, that's all for tonight. Goodnight journal.

-Jonathan

Okay, now the scoop on what has happened to me over the last couple of days.

On Friday I went to class and we learned about HIV and AIDS and how to care for those that had those diseases. After class I washed my work clothes and went to work... fun (sarcastic). Man that was horrible.

Saturday, I went to a tutorial for my third test. The teacher we have for tutorials is soooooooo boring! My gosh, I was practically asleep for the whole four hours! Afterward I went to work. At the end of it, when my manager was cutting hosts, he completely skipped over me and cut a bunch of other people! I was so mad at that! Those managers there are real jerks. Yesterday night I decided not to go to the study party 'cause it was so fucking cold out! I mean it was like 11 degrees or below!

Today was mostly just a day for me to relax and enjoy. I gave away my shift for today to Katie. Dana called me from work and said that it was a pretty crummy day at Red Lobster. People were pissing each other off and getting written up left and right. It sounded pretty funny, does laughing at that make me a bad person?

Eh. Tomorrow and Tuesday I have completely off! I can not believe how many days I have off in a row! It's like a freaking mini vacation! It's so awesome!

Well, I had better get some sleep. Goodnight journal.

-Jonathan

My gosh, I am so happy that clinicals are over. Last Wednesday was our last day. Unfortunately we still have to tell the other people in our class that our last clinical day isn't until next Tuesday like the rest of them, but fortunately for us it isn't since our instructor will be on a ship cruising the ocean on that day. Also, I'm glad I was able to get in all of my paperwork for clinicals. I am such a procratinator. I'm also happy about the paperwork I got back from her 'cause they were mostly 10's. Today I was in class today and we learned about the immune system. Boy, let me tell you how interesting that was. (sarcastic)

Hopefully I will be able to get saturday off so I can study with the people in my clinical group. We'll see what happens.

Man, it's been raining almost all day and night. I love rain, but not when it's cold outside. *sigh*

Eh, well, I should get some sleep now. Goodnight journal.

-Jonathan

Wow, I can't believe I haven't updated my journal in like nine days. :O
Boy do I have a lot to write about!
Well, last week I turned in my two care plans, two assessments, and another pharmacology paper. Then, I had a test, on which I got an 85% which I am very happy about but my parents have a very nice way of telling me that it isn't good enough by saying, "Oh that's nice, now you just need to get that up even higher." I mean my gosh, if only they'd listen to themselves talk and they would know why I get so frustrated whenever they want to talk to me. Geez.

Anyway, after the test last thursday me and Jamie went to the mall and did some shopping. It was a blast, of course. Afterward we ate at Olga's Kitchen and we had their cheese balls appetizer and they were fantastic! Afterward we went back to her house and watched Dancing With the Stars. Man I hate that show. All these dumbass reality shows are so fucking stupid! I mean come on! Haven't people had enough of this shit!

Once again I had to work all weekend. My gosh it was a fuckin' nightmare! My manager Charles would not get off my ass about checking the bathroom every thirty minutes! I mean seriously! But I do feel kinda bad for the guy since he has to work at Red Lobster's for the rest of his life. Still, I severely don't like him. Unfortunately I can never really hate someone.

Well, that was my weekend. Gotta get back to clinicals tomorrow, so I had better get some sleep.

Goodnight journal.

-Jonathan

Okay, so, this morning I pretty much lazed around until I had to go to work. While there my manager Jeff wouldn't leave me alone! He kept complaining that my section wasn't full! I mean seriously, get the fuck off amy ass you bastard! Comeon I was fucking bussing, cleaning, and seating my section all night! Bastard...

Oh well, goodnight journal.

-Jonathan

Okay, well, today I had class for three more hours on pre, intra, and post operative care giving. Yeah, fun. After class I came home and put my work clothes in the washer and pretty much lazed around until work. Work was a real bitch because I was at the door for a couple hours but then they decided to have me seat. Luckily, I coerced Candace, a coworker into letting me take her cut (when a worker is cut that means they are done for their shift and can go home). Then I came home and here I am now. Slackin' off again. *sigh* I am such a procrastinator...

Oh well, goodnight journal.

-Jonathan

Okay, so today I had my Nursing 155 class for three hours. It was about preoperative care and documentation. She also threw in some lessons on anesthetics. Tomorrow I have another three hour class where she is gonna finish the lesson she left off at today. Oh boy...

Oh yeah! Tonight I hung out with Jamie! It was a hoot! But I really wish Arlene could have came. Hehehe. I said came. I miss her...

I also saw this really cute boy on myspace today. I messaged and requested to be his friend. My gosh, that is so unlike me. He seems really awesome, the only seemingly bad part is that he smokes. I don't like smokers. Eh, whatever, his personality will hopefully make up for it.

*sigh* Well journal, that's it for tonight. I got to go to the bathroom. Goodnight journal.

-Jonathan

Okay, so today was my OR experience at Sinai-Grace hospital and boy what an experience it was! So here is what happened. First me and Dalela, one of the people in my clinical group, watched a cyscoscopy and it was very interesting. After that we watched a woman have her tubes tied. The interesting thing about this surgery was that she had a surgery to have them tied a while ago and afterward she got pregnant. So after she had her child she went back into the hospital to see what went wrong. Well, the surgeon used a camera to see what was going on with her, and guess what he discovered? It seems the surgeon that performed the first surgery didn't tie her tubes at all and he told her that he did and charged her for it! Can you believe that!? I mean seriously! How could he not know that she would discover this?!

After my 4 hours in the OR, my clinical partners and I went to work in the ER. My, what a busy day we had. Well, anyway, ER was very interesting. It was amazing how everyone worked as a team to take care of the patients that came in. I really enjoyed it alot. Maybe that's the area I want to go into? Eh, I don't know. But it was still fun.

I turned in my pharmocology paper today. I wanted to turn in my assessment too but I didn't finish it. I think she told me she only needs to get credit for my pharmocology paper for now and I can turn in my assessment and patho-paper later and that's what i'm going to do.

Tonight my parents and I went out to dinner at Applebees. It was okay, nothing too special.

Well, that's it for tonight. Goodnight journal.

-Jonathan

Okay, I don't know if you know this or not but my clinical location for this rotation is Sinai-Grace Hospital in Detroit. Yes, Detroit. It's actually a very nice hospital and has a great staff, except of course for the occasional "bad nurse". Man they piss me off. There was one time, and this was only a week ago, when one of the patients kept calling for help on the help button, and the nurses got so fed up with him they unplugged the his help button. After one of my clinical companions told me that I was completely outraged! I mean seriously! How could you be so cold hearted that you would put someone in danger by disabling their only means of getting help! Unacceptable! But of course there aren't a lot of these "bad nurses", there are still a lot of good ones that I hope I can live up to someday. *sigh*

Today's clinical as very nice because I had a very cooperative patient and he really didn't have much of anything wrong with him. All I had to do was change his primary IV and do an assessment on him. It was kind of hard to understand him though because he tended to mumble his words.

OMGosh, you will not believe what happened when my clinical group went on our break today! After we left the floor it seems that one of the patients that was in observation (for those of you who don't know what observation is, it's when a patient comes into the hospital and doesn't seem to be sick enough to be fully admitted, so the physicians put him/her into an observation room so they can be monitored so if they start showing symptoms of something the personnel can immediately act on it) went completely berserk after his girlfriend talked to him. He went after her and their child and luckily she got out of the hospital, but she unfortunately seemed to have left the child at the hospital. My instructor told us that it took like five or six people to hold this guy down! Everyone was shocked! I don't know what happened to him afterward but we were so surprised that this happened right after we left the floor. Man! I always miss the good stuff! If you're wondering what happened to the child, the nurses kept it with them until the patient's sister came and took it home.

I'm so excited! I can't wait for tomorrow! Tomorrow at 8:00 I will be observing in the OR, and then afterward I will be observing in the ER! *squee*

Well, I had better get some sleep if I want to get up tomorrow. Goodnight journal.

-Jonathan

Okay, so I'm in the HFCC Nursing program and you would not believe all the fucking homework we have to do! We have to do 2 proper care plans, 2 assessment papers, 3 pathophysiology papers, and 8 pharmacology papers by the end of NSG 155! And this class is only 8 weeks long! On top of all that stuff, which i have to do for homework, I still have to study for all of the fucking tests! Gosh! I think the reason why I have such a problem with homework is the fact that I tend to procrastinate a lot. And when I say procrastinate, I mean procrastinate. Like right now, I should be working on my homework but I really don't want to. *sigh* Now I just have to find the motivation to do this crap... but I REALLY don't want to. Man, I really hate homework. Great, look at me. I'm rambling the same thing over and over again. Oh well. I'd better get started on that homework. Goodnight journal. :(

-Jonathan